Gift From our Father Through our KING JESUS CHRIST

Father Be Glorified

Thank You Father God for the sun, a Beautiful day, waking me.  Thank You, You that You want to spend time with me

Thank You for the revelation and Prayer and All Provision.

meeting someone’s basic needs-

define basic- for even the world tells us that can be defined individually.

Feed,Watered (His Word)  being heard (acknowledged known by name)  touched (experience)  Sheltered (COVERED by HIS WING, BLOOD) freedom of expression (goals, desires, living for)

Father God STEPS IT UP A KNOTCH. He Delights our hearts. The sun, Flowers, Love, laughter, what i call Eternal memories. Heaven on earth.  Music, dance, All Gifts From God our Father to God our Father.

All received by Jesus Perfect Sacrifice.

Think on that.  Who among you would lay down their child (God) life (Jesus) for sinful people who don’t even want to spend time with you. i hear ” I want your Thanksgiving,so when you are in need, I can rescue you and you shall bring Me Glory” Psalm 50 i believe

O the Love of our Father and our Lord.

His Blessings Overflow

The earth and all that is in it Declare His Glory and Goodness.

Habakkuk 2:14

for the earth will be filled

With the knowledge of the Glory of the Lord,

As the waters cover the sea.


Another cat lesson


i was inside feeling very discontent.  i felt a post coming and grabed my stuff to enjoy the nice weather and write a letter to God. Telling Him how unhappy i am when i don’t wear His Yoke around my neck. Life becomes overwhelming and i feel so ??? As i have my hands full and proceed to my normal sitting spot i am stopped dead in my tracks by a baby Robin perched on a bucket behind where i sit. Is God good or what! i was gonna leave the I phone in-house to charge but Holy Spirit said bring it outside. So i got the picture. If that doesn’t make you think God loves me? Then maybe this will. My Girl bird catcher is right behind me. She is eating fresh grown catnip. (another Blessing from God came with the yard) i look at her and think don’t go near that bird. She walks to me stops, looks at the bird, then walks past me and sits 2 feet from bird just doin her thing. (she is under the table) i am amazed at this. Seeing God’s Blessings in it all… The I will not let the cat attack. I will show you harmony. I will Bless you. If you seek Me you will find Me.
Well i gotta get this out. i call friend first no answer. Then hubby picks up. With all the bad news i gave him today. It was nice to have a Blessing for him. i share the story and God speaks through my husband with words of  Wisdom. “don’t let things get you excited. Just cause it is there (see it) doesn’t mean you have to get excited. Just like patches saw the bird and didn’t get excited. Just cause she saw the bird doesn’t mean she had to do something about it. she rested”
God is now using Patches to share Himself with my husband. This cat of mine has been used by God more times than i can count. To show me Rest in God. As you love the cat I love you More, as you want to protect the cat I want More for you. on and on the list goes. True heartfelt life lessons on who God is for me.
So here i am what can i say…hum just had revealed the story in the bible where God used a donkey to speak to a guy. We read it as the donkey verbally spoke to man. maybe he did. But Patches didn’t have to say a word and God CLEARLY SPOKE THROUGH HER TO ME.
Father there was a time i never even thought where’s God? Went day after day year after year without any seeking of You in things. Now Thank You Father for answering my prayer ” may i see Your Light, be filled with Your Light, grow towards Your Light”. Father You have become like a drug to me. i am very aware when i am not yoked with You. i take on things that are not mine. i try to control that which i have no control. As you pointed out in N.Y i have no Peace. Father i want Your Peace. i want to totally trust You for All Things. Seek Your Guidance, Discipline,and Ways. i do not want to compartmentalized You. i want the words we sing every Sunday to be on my lips and in my heart at All Times. i do not like me apart from You. i get nasty when not at ease, judgmental, controlling, anxious, worry-some. Father as i have asked before take All of me. i want no say in the matter. i know that i know that i know Your way is the gentil, Peaceful way

How can i? i often ask this./ chisel me Lord


this skit really puts it into perspective! check out this version. Father may we throw off all we run to, to ease our pain in life. relationships, booze/drugs, beauty,suicide.

Talk about tearjerkers.   Father my i endure the pain of you chiseling me.  may we be the masterpieces  you created us to be.

for those that like good remakes

How it all started for me.

100_8595People always like to ask you “when did you get saved”   i never have a straight answer.  i believe i was called before birth, heard the “sinners prayer” at 13 in the court-house, when my dad was trying to get rid of me through the court system.(why i love Psalm 27)    i like to think it was many, many years later that i got saved.  While on break at work.  i was out side in my car smoking a cigarette and saw a butterfly.   There were no flowers just buildings.  So I knew it was from God.  See butterflies symbolize transformation.  Something i seek for myself.   To be better than i am.  Always growing.

i saw that butterfly and knew God had sent it to me, as a promise of transformation.  Then began this journey of going to a church that lead to our current  church.  So here i am proclaiming His Holy Name.  Something i never saw myself doing.   For when i was 13 i certainly was not praying out loud in the C-Towne grocery store, or while drinking 40 oz Old English 800.  Two years later i did cry out to God to have me stop doing drugs.  He was Faithful of course, and redeemed me.  For 15 years i didn’t touch them.

Through the course of life’s tragic events i pick  THC (pot) back up again.  (age 30)  i sat on my couch high and said  “God i didn’t do this all through my mid teens and twenties why would You let me pick this back up again?”     i believe this may have been the first time i heard God talk to me.   He said and i quote  ” DO YOU REALLY THINK IT WAS YOU KEEPING YOURSELF CLEAN ALL THOSE YEARS?”     Talk about a humbling moment.  Wow i had to repent and  See God for who He was my sustainer, deliverer.  i then asked help me.  He said “Go help someone else”  By His Grace and His Grace alone i did.  i helped remodel some ones bedroom of all things.   Go figure.

So there  i was in my car (now 35ish) with God’s promise to redeem, transform me.  Everyday i see His handy work in my life.   i have since picked up pot, put it down, picked it back up.  Back and forth i go.  Difference is i go to God in the high.  (for the record no i am not high now)

i guess i should share my view on pot first for this post to make any sense.  As a kid i hated pot/drugs.  Then i smoked pot for the first time at age 10.  i remember being in the shower and saying to God.  Now i can never say i never did drugs.  My ego and pride were hurt.   So at 15 i said this won’t get me where i want to be in life and stopped.  For 15 years i hated people who did.  i would ask people their name,  if they smoked, and if the answer was yes.  i  would not talk to them ever again.   So you can see why at 30 years of age i was a little perplexed that i had started smoking again.

i am learning so much about God through all this.  First i am judgmental.   Judge not, yea be doing  the same thing you judge.   Second we all fall short, what makes pot any worse than any other sin in my life?   i still think that pot is not the way to go.  i believe that God wants us clear-headed.  i have learned that God Will cause ALL THINGS TO WORK FOR GOOD TO THOSE WHO ARE CALLED AND LOVE HIM.

i do not know where this post is going so please let me pray.  Father do not let my sin shame Your Holy Name.  Father let my life bring Glory to You Holy Name.  May my sin lead others to repentance.  May all that i am declare Your Goodness, Salvation, Redemption.

i believe that with all this back and forth God is trying to show me my sin.  That when i think i am ok.  Pleasing to Him.  i am still filthy rags in His Holy Presence.  That i can go to church 3 times a week.  say my prayers at night and before meals.  i can pick up that piece of trash from the side of the road.  Or help the old lady cross the street.   If i have not love and repentance in my heart it means NOTHING TO HIM.    I believe that He is showing me that Love and Thanksgiving is what He wants.  That in the High i can and do Thank Him, seek Him for my protection and Salvation.  Ask Him to lead me to bring Glory to Him.  To use me in spite of my sin.   When i am not smoking pot for years or months, i don’t ask him such things.  i think i know His law i’ll follow it, i am following it.  When i am smoking pot that which i deem un-redeeming i see myself for the sinner i truly am and humble myself.   This is leading me to see all Gods children wherever they are in their  walk with Him as Redeeming, Loved by God.   God uses the murderer, the rapist, the pothead, crack head, the lowly  in life.   These are the people Jesus came to save.  the righteous don’t need it.

i can hear it now.  Heresy!  She is of satan.   Jesus said a kingdom divided can not stand.  i declare God’s Glory and KINGDOM.   i have to be of Him.  For it is Him that dwells within me that declares all His Goodness, Salvation, Redemption.  How can i be of satan when i am asking God to deliver me from him?

i don’t understand all this either.  i just know i want that prayer as a little kid to manifest in my life.

God “let me see Your Light, grow towards Your Light and be filled with Your Light”    Where this prayer came from i can only guess God.  For i have not heard it before or since i was 6 years old.

My prayer now is let ALL of me Glorify You Lord.  NONE OF ME ALL OF YOU GOD.  Take that which i bring to Your Alter and make it Holy for You are Holy.

Only God can transform.  i can’t tried and failed numerous times.  i have fallen enough times to know.  It is Only God that Delivers us from sin.  Our best efforts don’t no matter how much we like to think WE HAVE THE WILL POWER.    Your fooling yourself  if you think this.  For God’s Grace is on EVERYONE.  HE RAINS ON THE JUST AND UNJUST.      i just happen to be the unjust He is Raining His Grace and Mercy and Blessings on.


may all that i do be unto You Lord Jesus, My HEALER, REDEEMER,  DELIVERER,  ONLY JESUS CAN MAKE ME CLEAN.100_8605

Resting on the Lord

i have been one of those people who had no clue what resting in the Lord looks and feels like. With God things are opposite of what them seem. Resting in God does not mean resting like we think. We think rest is, a recliner, beer, t.v. cigs, a good movie, a beach, a day off of work….
Rest in God doesn’t mean you don’t work and sit around. Rest in God is not worrying, about outcome, others liking us, wondering if we are doing enough, or if we are doing it the right way. It is trusting that God is in charge and if we look at Him whatever work is in front of us won’t seem so heavy a burden for us.
i’ll refer to heavy lifting. When i am with God talking, rejoicing…. and i have to do heavy lifting, sweat producing labor. i don’t get tired and frustrated in the heat like i use to. i don’t see work as a cumbersome task anymore. i see what God wants to show me in the task at hand. Seems to fall into two categories with me. How to serve and Love others, or my pride. Service to others is pretty self explanatory. Pride is altogether different. Pride in look what i am doing. i do it all. Look at them. Pride in i can’t lift this i need help. Which always leads me to God. i can’t without You Lord work unto You, seek You, lift this, clean this………
i don’t know about you, but for me i use to take Pride in what i could do, and how much i knew. i would brag how i did this i did that. Just ask anyone who knew me up to about a year ago maybe sooner. Father forgive me. i took that which was a gift and made it about me and myself. Thank You for showing me that with You i can do all things. That You God enable me to think and lift. Thank You for Loving me in spit of my actions. Before i was born You knew me and called me by name anyway. Your Love Amazes me.
My friend she shows me Father Hearts love for me. how? Because she has seen my worst, i mean worst and she is still my friend after 26 yrs. To show God how much i love Him i want to speak only life to my friend. Build her up, let her know how loved she is not only by me but more so by the Father. Let her know that God is using her in a mighty way to show me Love.
This is resting in the Lord. Because my friend and i are so alike. We can drive each other crazy. We weren’t friends for 8 years because we drove each other nuts… She is answered prayer of restoration for our friendship. If i seek only to show her love then the things she does that use to bother me, i don’t notice other to than ask God if He wants to speak to it. Most times He tells me no. To show how good a friend she is, i don’t usually listen and she gets stuck with my opinion and loves me anyway. God is growing me up in this i do see. Forgive me first for not obeying and second for thinking i know how to fix everything.
Spouses are good for showing you Father heart of God and your own heart. Whole other post.
Point is when you are talking and communing with God no matter what your doing it isn’t over whelming. It comes nature. For His burden is easy and His yoke light.
Father may Your word come down like rain.

What shall i do Lord

Today has been funny. i have felt like i am doing nothing. Then i decide to just except it will be a lazy day and go outside. All the while asking God to lead in what to do next.
Well He showed me His provision before i ever got to sit down. (refer to last post)
Then when i sat down the phone rang. It was my old boss. She was calling to give me a number for a possible refund on our cruise next week. Thank You Father for this gift of vacation, that we can for fill a life long wish of my mother, to go on a cruise.
Well the conversation with boss turned out to be pleasing in God’s sight. That is my goal in life you know. We went from passing info to Praising God, Declaring His Goodness, Protection in motorcycle accident, and His provision for all things. We also Declared His written Word.
God says “see I will use you if you rest in me. Why do you think you have to do x, y,and z. Follow Me I will lead you in the path you should go. Didn’t I prove yesterday how much I can get done through your resting in Me”?
God clearly is trying to break the Performance Orientation in me. The “i have to work to be acceptable in God’s Eyes mind set”.
Nowhere in His Word does it say i must work or can earn His favor. It says Faith produces works, Fruit/good works are of the Spirit.
God is leading me in Hebrews Bible study. Be Blessed

God inhibits the praises of His children

i heard this recently. “God inhibits the praises of His children”  At first i didn’t get it.  For worship music isn’t my thing.  (way i feel closest to God).  So i didn’t really take it as truth.   Then through hanging out with God so much i find myself singing His praises all the time.

i was just thinking that God inhibits our praises because, that is when we Exalt Him, humble our selves.  God is in the humble.  He honors it.   So now i see the truth in what was told to me.

This all started with  thinking about How i come to God now,  it’s unconventional.  All i keep hearing is “Seek you will find, knock and it will be open, ask you will receive”.  so i keep seeking.  asking for more of God and He shows up.

i don’t ever want to come across as justifying so i will say that God is pleased i feel only with my seeking.  We all fall short and He does not measure sin as we  do .  Not to mention our BEST is but FILTHY RAGS  in His presence.

i can’t help but to want to serve and seek a God who accepts me where i am.  Teaches me how to do better either by blessing or correction.  He talks to me.

This is when i learned the meaning of the two people i know who quit smoking the God way.  God told them one day “you don’t need that anymore”  That was it they stopped smoking.  That is my prayer that i will hear God say that and obey.

This i think is what a counselor meant when he asked “if God told me to quit smoking, or was that my decision”?  At the time i was trying to quit.   i get it now.  If we do not hear from God or do without seeking Him.  We will fail and/or miss the opportunity to grow in Him.

So to comfort my roommate who desperately wants me to quit  ” Have faith that God will get me to quit regardless how much i smoke”.

Sometimes i like to think it is my thorn.  Like Paul, what ever keeps you humble is worth it in my eyes.   Then i can fellowship with God.  When i think i am actually worthy to come to the Throne on my own, that is when i am in big trouble.  NOTHING BUT THE BLOOD OF CHRIST do i dare come to Throne with praises, thanksgiving and petitions.  (rereading this part i saw justification in that sentence i like)

may all who read have deeper fellowship with God.