Gratitude doesn’t always come so easy

God Be Glorified

God has taken me on a journey lately, revealing me to me.  Some things i am glad to see.  Some things i was shocked to learn.  Like how you could lose some of the Best things life, has to offer you, Just by judging it.  Like Family, Friends, Love and Gratitude.

Believe it all starts with pain.  i will speak for myself, i am not a fan of it.  Recently i learned that pain can be your best  asset. For in pain you learn who really cares for you, and what you really care about.  i use to think that love was only love if it made you feel good.  i have since learned that those that love you will hurt you.  ( to us sensitive people this may seem wrong).  Not because they seek to, rather because they wont settle for less then you were created to be.  This has taken me far to long, to realize this.   It took living in a comfortable none confronting, relationship to learn this lesson.  For when things are comfortable there is no stretching of yourself.  You remain stagnant.  You lose desire for anyone, else but yourself.  i learn you also lose yourself, and your passions too.   For i have come to learn it is in the stretching that your true self is revealed.

Take gratitude for example.  i thought i was grateful, till i realized that it, like love is a action.  Anyone can say i love you, i am grateful.  It is the ones  that show it in action that reveal they are truly grateful.

So many lessons, so lets just take Veterans as the example for this post.  My Brother and many family members served this country.  Yet because of my judgments on war and government, i never really appreciated All they did for me/us.  You would think that someone who couldn’t even make it through 6 weeks of basic would of learned this.  Yet it has taken me, 20+ years to see how ungrateful i was.  Just saying Thank you, i have come to learn for me, is not enough.  At least not anymore.  Now i seek to learn how to show appreciation in a way that speaks to their hearts.  Truly conveying to them, that though i may not fully understand their sacrifice of family and safety.  i am Eternally Grateful for the sacrifices they make Daily.    See  these men and woman know how valuable life, family, friends, and freedom Truly is.  i guess it takes losing something to understand its value.  For it was in the stripping of all of these things, that made me realize how Ungrateful i really was.  How utterly Selfish and self-centered i have been all my life.

i can only pray that as God continues to reveal my heart to me, that i will grow in love and gratitude for all life. That i will learn to value pain, as a Gift.  Not something to avoid, rather something placed in your life to show you the value of things.

So to anyone reading this, i pray that you too learn that pain can out weigh comfort in so many ways.  That when life seems to be at it’s worst, that is when true inner healing begins.  i am still not a fan of physical pain, but i have learned the value of emotional pain.  i also pray that Every Veteran Receive Gratitude and Respect for all that they have done.

in closing.  THANK YOU to every man woman who said yes to serving US!

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ALL ARE CALLED

GOD has called me to pray over my favorite city New York.  He and i walked, and bike the city.  Praying His outpouring of Humility, and love.  That all would seek Him, See Him.  i learned so much.  Like He is Here.  There will be some who will listen and some who won’t.  You will see some seeds watered, and others you will have to wait to see.    All i keep hearing Him say is ” how will they know if they are not told, Faith comes by hearing THE WORD OF GOD”  so He  has called us all to speak His Word.  i am not saying believe God or be doomed.  That is not the Word He called me to share.  He called me to say, God is Good, Shalom, Raise them in the ways they should go and when they are older they will not depart, His creation declares His Glory,  as my strength grew weary, i can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. He spoke Prayers of Blessing over people, He Prayed the children would see Him coming in Glory.  He prayed restoration and healing.  He showed me World Trade Tower points to HIM!

i can write a book alone on what happened in just two days in NY.  He wants us all to know that where ever our foot treads He is Before us.  Offer every step to Him, and watch HIM WORK.

Every encounter with someone is an opportunity to be Christ or see Christ.  Trick is. You must ASK FIRST.  Jesus keeps bringing this to mind.  How many times i went to NY  (anywhere) without any regard of whether God was there or not.  He is showing me ask Him to go before and with you and He Will!   As our Lord said. Do not worry what you will say The Holy Spirit will tell you, if they do not welcome you dust off your feet, it is not you who will lead them to Him, it is He that Leads us to Him.

Father lift the veil, open our ears, that we may see and hear You.

Isaiah 55:9-11 Zech 1:5,6 Matt 24:35 Mark13:31 1Peter 1:25

A Word of Encouragement

FOR THE LOVE OF GOD

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I want to take a little time to get personal and share with you some things that I have learned through experience and time and especially the last couple of years working with so many wonderful people on the internet.

I have been told many times by some peers and family, many of them well-meaning, but just lacking understanding, that internet ministry is just a hobby. They tell me that at the most it can be a tool used to get people involved in your “real” church. Of course what they mean is what I like to call the “brick and mortar” church.

The thing that I have found to be true though and especially working so diligently with so many of who have ministry on the world-wide-web is that the “real” church is right here! I don’t mean in the traditional sense of course, but the real church has

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Power in prayer

Father be Glorified.  in case anyone has wondered where i have been, i have been hand writing it all.  This post comes to you via me feeling God wants this one out there in cyber space.

Let me start off with the Proof first.  i went out to our truck one day and saw my wallet opened on center arm rest.  NOTHING IN TRUCK WAS TAKEN.  whoever was in there the night before went threw the things but took NOTHING.  No drivers license, no checks, no credit cards  ALL THERE.   Today i go to fill up the truck and put my keys and iphone on back bed topper.  Proceed to buy MTO.  Only to come back to my truck, full of gas Keys and phone where i left them.   ok there is your proof.  Now here is what started all this proof gathering.  God has been Showing me, Telling me that ” we have Power in prayer” “to pray where ever you go, before you open mouth, as you drive, visit places.”   With this said.  The truck has been prayed over, in, and around it for that matter.

i feel the more important lesson here is  His people.  That NONE SHOULD PERISH   it is Written.    The truck  is but one of many experiences i have had with Gods protection (answered prayer of).  He is Blessing me with seeing that prayers for people have lasting affects too.  That just as there where people praying for me i know nothing about, i could be for someone else.  It is answered prayer of empty me Lord that i may Only carry YOU.

i find i make a more positive impact when i first seek God in interactions.  i have 43 years experience on how i impact people without seeking God First.  NOT SO POSITIVE!

He has shown me He placed me everywhere i am so He can pray for them through me.  The collage campus i found myself on, hearing Him pray Pour out YOUR SPIRIT FATHER THAT THEY MAY KNOW YOU.

This is the Secret Place i feel.  No one can hear your thoughts, unless you speak them.  OH but God can.  He hears everything.  So as i seek to be emptied, i believe Jesus is revealing His Nature of Prayer with Father.  Therefore answering prayer MAY i KNOW YOU.

added bonus lesson Only Gods Word ALWAYS BEARS FRUIT.

Isaiah 55:9-11 Zech 1:5,6 matt 24:35 Mark 13:31  1 Peter 1:25

 

Faith vs. evidence

Jesus be Glorified!

i constantly war between not doing what i see worthy of His calling vs. He is using me just where i am.  Here is a passage from Andrew Murray’s book ” The Spirit of Christ” p.61 that brought comfort to this war in my mind and heart.   Father may Your Holy Spirit speak Your Truth through it to our spirit.

” In seeking for this power of the spirit, let us note the manner of His working.  There is one mistake we must especially be aware of.  It is that of expecting always to feel the power when it works.  Scripture links power and weakness in a wonderful way, not as succeeding each other, but as existing together.  “I was was with you in weakness…and my preaching was…in power”. ” when I am weak, then am I strong”  ( 1 Corth 2:3-5,      2 Corth 4:7,16 6:10,12:10,13:3,4)

The power is the power of God, given in faith, and faith grows strong in the dark.  The Holy Spirit hides Himself in the weak things that God has chosen, so that flesh may not glory in His Presence.  Spiritual power can only be known by the spirit of faith.  The more we acknowledge  our weakness , the more confidently we can expect the Spirits Power, even when nothing is felt”

in this reading i saw how when i am at ( what i perceive as) my weakest, that is when God is Glorified.  So long as i have any ounce of confidence in myself, God can not be Glorified.  For i then take from Him what is Only His.  It then appears that when i am doing nothing that He is doing everything.  This is where my faith lies.  Which then reveals to me the truth behind ” Spiritual power can only be known by the spirit of faith”

one of my greatest sins i feel is when i impart my beliefs/views onto God.  Thinking nothing can possibly come out of this.  Instead of holding true to His Word. ” My Ways saith the God of the universe are Higher then your ways, My Thoughts are higher then your thoughts “. It is becoming evidently clear how True this Word is.

We seek evidence , God already knows.  He needs no evidence here on earth.  So as we seek evidence here we miss the Truth in the spirit realm.  God is Spirit,  He lives in the Spirit, see’s in the Spirit.  Till He imparts to us Spiritual eyes, we will only seek to be satisfied in the flesh.  May we at once pray to have our eyes open to that which pleases God.  Not what pleases man.  Is not The Holy Spirit the Spirit of God Himself, testifying of Him,  Does not that same Spirit testify to us that He is at work perfecting in/us.  Not us perfecting He that Is PERFECT !

May we seek His Perfection, not ours.  May we seek to be full in Him, and Him fully through us.

i profess that it is our seeking of evidence  that is the true enemy of faith.  Faith is trusting/believing in God.  Evidence is trusting /believing in us.

Father may we only seek faith, not evidence.  To the Glory of Jesus Christ whom God sent to testify of His Glory.  Through His Holy Spirit that accomplishes what He sent forth.

Is 55:9-11 Zech 1:5,6 Matt 24:35  1Pet 1:25

God Is Humble

Abba Father i ask that i may know this Truth in my deepest being.  That You Lord would live it out through me here on earth.

Jesus humbled Himself.  Jesus can not be anything other than what He is.  Jesus is God. Therefore God is humble.  Humble to the point of not only unto death but death so that We May Have life.  He already had life.  He is LIFE!  He humbled Himself unto man! i can never know this depth of humility Lord.  It is only as i die that You may live this life in me.

In my finite mind i separated humility from God as if it were an entity unto itself.  Something outside of God, to be taken up.  This i learned today from my Lord is not the case.  Humility is not outside of God , it is God!

It is easy to attach love to God and aspire to reach that attribute.  Humility not so much.  As much as i thought love was the hardest i now see humility is far greater for without this there can be no love.

Father empty me.  Take this vessel that You called into being and fill it with Your life.  For as much as You live in me is, there life at all.  Break me, crush me, pour me out, to fill me up, to pour me out again.  My sin is ever before me Lord it is against You and You alone O’Lord i have sinned.

Isaiah 55:9-11. Matthew  24:35