Gratitude doesn’t always come so easy

God Be Glorified

God has taken me on a journey lately, revealing me to me.  Some things i am glad to see.  Some things i was shocked to learn.  Like how you could lose some of the Best things life, has to offer you, Just by judging it.  Like Family, Friends, Love and Gratitude.

Believe it all starts with pain.  i will speak for myself, i am not a fan of it.  Recently i learned that pain can be your best  asset. For in pain you learn who really cares for you, and what you really care about.  i use to think that love was only love if it made you feel good.  i have since learned that those that love you will hurt you.  ( to us sensitive people this may seem wrong).  Not because they seek to, rather because they wont settle for less then you were created to be.  This has taken me far to long, to realize this.   It took living in a comfortable none confronting, relationship to learn this lesson.  For when things are comfortable there is no stretching of yourself.  You remain stagnant.  You lose desire for anyone, else but yourself.  i learn you also lose yourself, and your passions too.   For i have come to learn it is in the stretching that your true self is revealed.

Take gratitude for example.  i thought i was grateful, till i realized that it, like love is a action.  Anyone can say i love you, i am grateful.  It is the ones  that show it in action that reveal they are truly grateful.

So many lessons, so lets just take Veterans as the example for this post.  My Brother and many family members served this country.  Yet because of my judgments on war and government, i never really appreciated All they did for me/us.  You would think that someone who couldn’t even make it through 6 weeks of basic would of learned this.  Yet it has taken me, 20+ years to see how ungrateful i was.  Just saying Thank you, i have come to learn for me, is not enough.  At least not anymore.  Now i seek to learn how to show appreciation in a way that speaks to their hearts.  Truly conveying to them, that though i may not fully understand their sacrifice of family and safety.  i am Eternally Grateful for the sacrifices they make Daily.    See  these men and woman know how valuable life, family, friends, and freedom Truly is.  i guess it takes losing something to understand its value.  For it was in the stripping of all of these things, that made me realize how Ungrateful i really was.  How utterly Selfish and self-centered i have been all my life.

i can only pray that as God continues to reveal my heart to me, that i will grow in love and gratitude for all life. That i will learn to value pain, as a Gift.  Not something to avoid, rather something placed in your life to show you the value of things.

So to anyone reading this, i pray that you too learn that pain can out weigh comfort in so many ways.  That when life seems to be at it’s worst, that is when true inner healing begins.  i am still not a fan of physical pain, but i have learned the value of emotional pain.  i also pray that Every Veteran Receive Gratitude and Respect for all that they have done.

in closing.  THANK YOU to every man woman who said yes to serving US!


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