Jesus be Glorified!
i constantly war between not doing what i see worthy of His calling vs. He is using me just where i am. Here is a passage from Andrew Murray’s book ” The Spirit of Christ” p.61 that brought comfort to this war in my mind and heart. Father may Your Holy Spirit speak Your Truth through it to our spirit.
” In seeking for this power of the spirit, let us note the manner of His working. There is one mistake we must especially be aware of. It is that of expecting always to feel the power when it works. Scripture links power and weakness in a wonderful way, not as succeeding each other, but as existing together. “I was was with you in weakness…and my preaching was…in power”. ” when I am weak, then am I strong” ( 1 Corth 2:3-5, 2 Corth 4:7,16 6:10,12:10,13:3,4)
The power is the power of God, given in faith, and faith grows strong in the dark. The Holy Spirit hides Himself in the weak things that God has chosen, so that flesh may not glory in His Presence. Spiritual power can only be known by the spirit of faith. The more we acknowledge our weakness , the more confidently we can expect the Spirits Power, even when nothing is felt”
in this reading i saw how when i am at ( what i perceive as) my weakest, that is when God is Glorified. So long as i have any ounce of confidence in myself, God can not be Glorified. For i then take from Him what is Only His. It then appears that when i am doing nothing that He is doing everything. This is where my faith lies. Which then reveals to me the truth behind ” Spiritual power can only be known by the spirit of faith”
one of my greatest sins i feel is when i impart my beliefs/views onto God. Thinking nothing can possibly come out of this. Instead of holding true to His Word. ” My Ways saith the God of the universe are Higher then your ways, My Thoughts are higher then your thoughts “. It is becoming evidently clear how True this Word is.
We seek evidence , God already knows. He needs no evidence here on earth. So as we seek evidence here we miss the Truth in the spirit realm. God is Spirit, He lives in the Spirit, see’s in the Spirit. Till He imparts to us Spiritual eyes, we will only seek to be satisfied in the flesh. May we at once pray to have our eyes open to that which pleases God. Not what pleases man. Is not The Holy Spirit the Spirit of God Himself, testifying of Him, Does not that same Spirit testify to us that He is at work perfecting in/us. Not us perfecting He that Is PERFECT !
May we seek His Perfection, not ours. May we seek to be full in Him, and Him fully through us.
i profess that it is our seeking of evidence that is the true enemy of faith. Faith is trusting/believing in God. Evidence is trusting /believing in us.
Father may we only seek faith, not evidence. To the Glory of Jesus Christ whom God sent to testify of His Glory. Through His Holy Spirit that accomplishes what He sent forth.
Is 55:9-11 Zech 1:5,6 Matt 24:35 1Pet 1:25