i was suppose to volunteer somewhere today. but i over slept. so the old me would of said you failed you fell short…. the transforming me says i am still preaching the good news God loves us anyway. . see i am a performance oriented person. Word i recently learned. It means i base value on working. i feel i have to earn Gods Grace. Which is a oxy moron because Grace can’t be earned. So i base my day on how much i get done. Now this is huge for me because i lived with a dictator as a dad. There were mean words said and violence. So believe me i was not raised in the LOVE OF GOD which is why it seems so foreign to me.
i can see why God has to tell us over 365 times don’t worry.
God used my cats to show me His love for me. i could write a book on all He spoke to me through them. For now i’ll share that which i asked to be remembered of. i was on the porch and the cats were outside. sitting next to me. i looked at them feeling/thinking Wow you have the whole world to explore but you choose to be by my side. Then comes what i now call the down load from God. He says “they don’t have to fight or fend for their food, they know they have a safe place to live, so they rest in you. This is what I want from you. just rest in Me”. Wow when God gives you stuff like that you leap for joy inside.
Back to the works thing. Here i am sunning typing feeling like i am not contributing a thing to the world. And yet God is showing me He will use all things for His Glory. That because i am resting in His wonderful provision sun, chair, laptop, waterfall next to me, cigs, water, you name it i am enjoying my freedom in Him. He says this is what I want. If for a season i do not have to work for my bills then what am i doing with my time. My prayer is that i bring Glory to God. Share Him with others the best way i know how. Which is why this blog must be about God and God alone. My experiences of course for i have nothing else to draw from. If I will share others as i perceive them. May all who read know the LOVE OF GOD through our CHRIST JESUS.